So it's been forever since I've posted anything on here...hell it's been forever since I've had any kind of happiness in my life. Right now the only glimmer of sunlight in these suffocating shadows is her...and she doesn't even care that I exist. She'll never fully comprehend how much I truly do care for her...she's too wrapped up in her own world...her perfect little world where she's always got a smile on her face and a sparkle in her eye, while I sit here surrounded by the darkness of my own tainted heart yearning for a hand to reach down and lift me off my weary feet. This journey has been so long and tiring...I just wish to find a place to rest my head and gather my thoughts before I battle the hellish flames of hatred and rejection